分手了

我跟她分手了
分手的前一天晚上都睡不着
想了很久很久
大概凌晨4 5点钟
我才决定分手
其实是有点不惯
看到她又不懂要说什么
分手前又是这样
分手后又是这样
终于都做了最后的决定
终于都松了一口气
不过还是很对不起
刚开始分了有点不舒服
不过久了一些
就没那么难受
这样也好得
不在拖
真没想到会这样
我所做的一切都让我自己吓了一跳
很久都没写blog了
因为我太懒
最近也没什么事情发生
哈哈

wash my face last few weeks

few weeks ago duno y my mum take me to wash my face...
then go i lor...
my sis was the 1st wan to wash...lol
saw the face how she suffer im so happy...lol
but the next was me...damn...
walau...really very pain lor...
haiz...
my 1st time leh...
pain till hell like tat ar...
but how choi can ply with the dog after the suffer...lol

holiday...lolx

my holiday is already arrive...lol
but i duno wat to do at home...
haiz...
all my friend also go work dy...
i duno who i still can find when im outside...
so sien ar...
im thinking to find a work...
but im lazy...and also duno go where to find lo...
im too free now la...not song...
ut can go shopping wit my gal gal dis sat...lol
im so excited...cant wait till tat day...haha...
she changed my mind last saturday...
lol...
made me stop the foolish thing i was going to do...
thank you babe...lol...
mwuackxz..XD

i got a bad decision

i was just bought a maxis sim card cause my babe is using maxis...
i din told my dad...
but yesterday he ask me you got another sim card is it?
i say no...
after that he ask me the second time...
then i say yes...
then he just fuck me like shit...
i just buy a sim card and lie to him once...
wat the hell...
he's got a big reaction...
fuck...
i dun like this...
just a sim card no need so mad gua...
==
he's insane...
whack me till my ear hole bleed...
there's many blood on my hand...
im so fucking dulan dy...
then he ask me to give him my gf's number...
i've no choice...
i just gave it to him...
then e call my gf...
scold her...
my heart is so pain...
damn dulan...
then i fuck him back lo...
wat the hell...
this home is just a mess bcoz of him...
i got a bad decision...
i dont know am i going to do tat...
it's enough...
i dont wanna live in this home...
im gonna find work for myself...
dont k la...
sry mom...
hey babe...
you'll stand on my side ritez?
hope you will...
love you muackz...

new relationship...lol

19th nov 2009...i chase a gal call sL...
she's so cute...charming...and...she's pretty tall...
lol...
i like tall gals...bcoz im tall also...so it's match with me...
but we seldom pak tol...
cause she cant out normally...and i just can see her at tuition...
but we cant be so close is bcoz of one tuition teacher...
she's so duo lan yeh...
she call her dont accept me 1st...
need me to wait...6 months...lol
sot dy meh...6 month...later i wait till chi sin...
when tat time she call her dont accept me 1st...we're already is a couple...
so she said dont wanna let teacher know 1st...
lie her 1st...
lol
but i feel tat can see her everyday it's enough...
she said tat she love me more then before...
and i wont disappoint her...lol
hey babe...
sry for yesterday's...
so shame
haha...but you din mad then ok dy lar...
love you muackz...

new relationship...lol

pmr is over

finally pmr is over..

i've suffer for 1 month bcoz of this

tuition tuition tuition..

im getting insane

wat the hell

lol

hey

sorry la

mad for wat la

you see my message wor

whr can like tat wan leh

nxt time be clever a bit

dont see ppl's privasy

you're just making ppl dulan only

very song meh?

see see see

lol

sorry la

kay?

dont mad at all

forgive?

i've forgiven you dear

but sometimes i just

cant let it go..

i'm so mad when i'm

thinking about what you did me..

wtf?

we've break already

but the reason..

it's unbelieveable..

fuck..

i cant forget what you've done to me

make me so hurt..

but that's good..

i got an experience that

very less people had..

haiz

recover?

also dont know how long

i'll be recovered

everything's just came so sudden..

we're fucked..

i still love you

no matter what you've done to me

i still love you my dear...

i dont know why i just cant hate you

for a long time...

and now i've forgiven you

i'm so stupid

i know it's your fault

but just dont keep blaming yourself okay?

but i still dont know what's

the reason you did that...

what the fuck

i cant accept this...

when you told me that im so shock..

lol

how could you did this to me...

wao..

that's really hurt...

the pain...

it's hard to mention...

the taste...

it's bitter...

im so suffer...

dont know how to face you...

why you juz dint think about what

will the end becomes...

last time you said ur fren...

now your turn...

why we'll be like this is just your fucking fault...

im really really so shock when you told me that...

but i still love you my dear...

i just cant accept what you've done to me

still love you...

muackz..

i hate myself...

im so bored

haiz

itz been a day tat your credit expire

so bored man

till i wanna suicide dy

XD..

hey babe

make it fast okay?

without you my life is nothing

plz go reload fasta okay?

lolx

love you

mwuuuuuackxz^.^

roller with my babe

today roller with my babe
walau
so many ppl oo
and my sis oso got go
i keep teaching her but she still dont get it
haiz
dun care you dy lar
go skate myself..lolx
we go in at 12..then about 3 my sis..
she finally know how to skate
and she's teaching a little gal tim..
owh thank god..
i saw victor...hey dude...lol
and he saw me hold my babe in my arms...
lol
she got a stomach ache...haiz...
i've told you to eat alot...
but i got tat too..wat the hell la..
i eat a lot lor..why i got it?
everytime go roller oso like tat wan..
haiz..neva mind..lol
tat uk ar...you wanna die ar?
u wan play oso dun play till like tat lor..
later i whack gao you then you know..heng..
just joke...lolx
then we leave at 5 somethin
it goin na rain..
but luckyly the rain falls after you're home
haha
then my aunt said tat she wanna bring us to the cross talk thing
wat la
roller til so tired you call me go?
ofcoz not..
sry ar..haha..
today eat till so full oo..
ive taken 4 meal for today..
wow..it's too much 4 me..
haha
the sms with my babe till now..
lolx
today im so happy
bcoz of your exist..
thank god for giving you to me..
babe i love you so much
mwuuuuuuuuuuuuuackxz..
i reli cant live without you..
no matter wat..
plz dont leave me okay?

why you guys lie to me

hey man
you tot im sohai ar
i tell you i noe everything man
dun try ta lie la
i just say something then you diu me back ar
walau
i noe you're lying la
still wan so fierce ar?
damn sohai la you
and you ar
i treat you like brother
how could you did this things to me?
i duno wat ur thinking
is it about money?
wat's wrong wit you man
i already ask you many times is tat thing real
you keep saying tats real tats real
i trust you leh
but all was just bull shit
i cant believe it
wat you're talking about?
why man
why you lie to me
haiz
i never trust you again
never mind
im just bought a lesson wit rm 10
its so worth..
fvck you la fat ass..shorty
and you
my only bro
you treat me so good..
i duno how to say
you told me everything
about huminity
your the only guy tat i'm worth to trust
everyone is covered with a mask
plz dun trust him when he's not taken it off
when he've taken it off..you'll be shock tat you know him so long and he's a cheater
lolxz
and you my babe
i've told everything honestly to you
i hope tat you're not lying to me also
im very sry about yesterday's..
i'll never do it 'A'gain
i promise..

went to drink at her house..lolx

last friday
i did't go to skul and i went to my babe's house and drink
lolx..
she's just having two glasses of it and she was drunk
im so enjoy to watch her drunk
haha..
im not abnormal..
juz she was so cute..but noisy at the time
then i shh..and she said oo..and close her mouth wit her hands..and we keep repeating this action lolx
she's so damn cute..
the she keep asking everyone wanna had tongue kiss wit her?
hey you cant do tat..
she keep asking me m i drunk?
she say she wan me to be drunkard wit her wor
haha
not just she's drunk but her frenz..
then those drunkard juz mess up her house and break something..
damn crazy..
i help her to sweap the floor and wash up all the glasses
lolx..
and im also a bit deezy tat time
damn tired..so early go drink..
lolx
then i go take a nap and out of a sudden my babe climbed up the sofa and sleep together wit me
wow..
tats so damn perfect to me..how bout you?
then i wake up and help teng pack something to eat..
and i go buy some cigarette
tat time my head is so pain..headache..
haiz..
then go pack somethin for my little sissy then i went back..
im so damn enjoy man..
can do tat again?
lolx..
muackxz

4th day of da fvcking holiday

today is alredi thursday

the 4th day of holiday

jz like normal

go k4

yam cha

dong ball

tution

sms

listen mzc

eat

watch tv

thn sms again thn slip

jz gt these few thingz to do

in this day

jz like hell

so bored

went to pulau ketam

today oo

duno is wat

fvcking day lai de

went to pulau ketam

damn hot man

n the sun so shine

but i duno m i being darker

fvck

hey gal

jz try lar

dun say no to me

jz try

myb u'll like it

gv me n u a chance

dun jz say no

hope ur listening

but ur nt listening

haiz

jz try

jz try

jz try

okay?

think carefully

about tat

last thing

jz try la

haha

exam

dis time de exam

no nid put the bagz

out side de wor

duno y

jz put it on the floor

thn i go cheat lor

haha

damn easy dy lor

gt speech

i oso gt speech de thing

lolx

n my fren bside me

alwiz gv me answer oo

vry gd

haha

but cheat is jz lie to myslf
so oso nid study hard lor

hehex^^

sok k

today i buy k frm my fren

thn exam mar

so i din sok 1st lor

after exam

i went to toilet n sok

walau..

i feelz like..ntg

lolx

thn im thinking

ei?

y ntg happen de

m i using the wrong way to sok ler?

thn i go bck class

think think think

thn i stand up

walau

damn dizzy man

i feelz i gt a great strength

thn call sum1 to fight wit me lor

walau

reli "da li"dy oo

n i hit the wall oso no feeling leh

walau

crazy le

haha

but the taste is bitter

wah

vry song ler

so high

like i can fly

woohoo

i sot liao

haiz

sok dou sot dy

dun try dis

my fren

reli reli reli

dun try dis

u'll be addicted to it

n today u say"wat u looking at,

ur eyez vry ugly ar"to me

walau

ur smiling n saying dis to me

im so happy man

hope we can be frenz like old time

haha

damn angry today

today when i go organ class

my dad n i go fetch my sis

in smk taman desa

thn a guy suddenly

open my dad's door

thn hit my dad

walau

i reli vry angry

i jz wanna get down the car n

fight wit the guy u noe

but gt another guy cum n hlp oo

aiyo

oso duno hw

wat the..

im so..

arrrrrrrrrrrr

fvck

i wanna find the guy out

i wanna hit the guy bck

in front of my dad

im god damn angry nw

>.<

T.T

feel sad tat i cant hlp

feelz like im useless

ou shit

1st time wear colour con..hehex

today ar

im waiting 4 the guy

tat hlp me buy con d

at the bus stop

thn bside the bus stop is the guard hse

n he's standing beside the guard hse oo

so i cant c him lor

wat the

wait him 4 long time

hez jz standing bside the g.hse

thn he go in to skul wit his frenzzz lor

walau

all galz lai de oo

but jz 1 can let ppl c oni

lolx

thn he give me the con lor

after skul i go bck hme

n wear it lor

walau

can c green oso ler

wah

1st time reli nt comfort

wear more few timez 1st lor

walau

n vry scary oo

far far c vry nice d

but look nearly ler

vry "ga"

lolx

duno y today ar

feelz like

ntg to say like tat oo

so i write le dis

oso meaningless de

haiz

i oso duno wat im tlking

wat the hell

boring day

today cum bck frm kampung le

thn bck to my home

yeah

prepare things for 2molo

thn

go ply com

go eat

go bth

thn ply com bck

wat a boring day

sienz like hell

2molo going to take

my pair of contact lenz

yes

green 1

so happy

act i buy grey d

but the guy say

green 1 thn i say ok lor

but i still 1 grey

ok lar

dis time i buy from u

"bao bei"

wait me gt money 1st

i think

2 weeks

lolx

bck to kampung

today wake up

still same lar

evrywhr pain

haiz

oso duno when i'll be ok

jz wait lor

but i think i love roller dy

coz i still wan roller

haha

itz like drugz to me nw

hope i can c u roll

n roll wit u

till nw

i oso duno the reason

y u treat me like a stranger

hope u can tell me soon

n today is my grandpa's

尾七

so i cum bck kampung

ntg to do

sienz

but tomolo going bck le

hou choi

lolx

my 1st roller..TT

today start to exam le

still can answer the ques lor

thn after skul

me, my bro n my "sou sou"

go secret recipe eat oo

thy 2 oso eat cake

jz me eat chiken curry puff oni

after tat

me n my bro n ah weng

lou tek go bck home

n bath

thn we go k4 eat

but i din eat lar

jz go thr yam cha

thn we go 7th floor roller

walau

me pokai many timez dy ler

i think hv 8/9 times

thn nw

evrywhr pain

oh god..damn it

n nw oso damn tired

haiz

vry pain ar

TT

duno tomolo ok dy mar ler

hope i'll revive fster lar

nitez^^

bleed

today when im bathing oo

i bleed leh

myb is bcoz lack of water(din drink water)

i alwiz bleed d

duno y

aiya

itz normal to me dy lar

haha

today at skul vry sienz

coz my fren din cum again today

they say go roller wor

fun meh?

oso duno thm d

i'll say like dis myb is bcoz of

i duno roller

shhhhh....

haha

when i go k4

thy still plying roller

wah

nt tired meh

cum skul lar

im vry sienz ler

cum skul tomolo

ok?

vomit..XP

today i've drink a lot of water

n i wlk vry fst to home

thn i vomit

bt ntg la

jz spilt sum water out

still remember i smoke 1st time

evryday oso vomit ler

thn i gt gastric problem

thn go clinic lor

the doc say 1 inject ass oo

walau

i vry scare of injection d

still 1 inject on my ass

wah

damn pain ler

but ofcoz i dun hv cry la

so easy to cry

im nt man dy lor

lolx